29.4.16

conversation at dawn

"do you know what you are?"

"what?"

"you're both
the stormy night and
the calm morning after."

22.4.16

break, broke, broken

i've always been wondering
why did i attract the most broken people;
but it wasn't until i met you.

you were never the prince on a white horse;
but as the time goes on,
every imperfection of yours
becomes a clarity for me;
and i cling to your beautiful mess of a flaw
like my life depends on it.

i want to mend the crippled parts within you,
but you're the one who fixed me instead;
i want to save you from the surging sadness,
but you're the one who saved me instead.

we're the broken pieces in the land of misfit toys;
the misfits among the misfits,
but we fit each other perfectly, pieces by pieces.

20.4.16

the day

all this time,
i could never imagine that
this day would eventually come.

the day when someone would actually make me a priority.
the day when someone would actually be willing to stay awake for me.
the day when someone would actually be willing to take risks for me.
the day when someone would actually look at me dead in the eye and tell me that i'm beautiful.
the day when i could actually feel that i'm being loved unconditionally.
the day when i could actually bare myself until the very last fragment; until the deepest, darkest piece of me.

all hell breaks loose when you and i found each other.

15.4.16

cinta bukan melulu soal cinta

cinta bukan melulu soal siapa yang lebih dulu.
yang telah lama singgah bisa jadi sama rapuhnya
dengan yang sekedar lalu-lalang.

cinta bukan melulu soal detak jantung yang berdegup kencang,
bukan melulu soal pupil yang melebar.
yang telah kehilangan nafasnya
bisa jadi yang semenjak dahulu telah menyimpan asa.

cinta bukan melulu soal hukum tawar-menawar.
saat sudah kehabisan apa yang ditawarkan,
terkadang cinta dengan naifnya
tetap menyambut dengan tangan terbuka.
persetan dengan hukum ekonomi,
yang memberi kurang bisa jadi
telah memberi seluruh yang mereka miliki.

cinta bukan melulu soal mengabaikan ketidaksempurnaan.
justru cinta menerima seutuhnya,
segala kesempurnaan maupun ketidaksempurnaan.
setiap gores dan luka, bukalah mata
dan terimalah mereka dengan utuh.
yang terlihat baik bisa jadi
membuatmu menutup mata atas keburukan mereka.

cinta bukan melulu soal apa yang terlihat,
karena bisa jadi indera kita
dibuatnya luluh lantak di hadapannya.

“tak ada cinta yang muncul mendadak,
karena dia anak kebudayaan,
bukan batu dari langit.”
bumi manusia - pramoedya ananta toer